Archive for December, 2009

UnderWoman Goes “Om”

Tuesday, December 29th, 2009

UnderWoman Acts Over Her Egg

In the aftermath of the season’s first snow, Central Park glows.

It had been a glorious day – from dogs running free in the deep powder of the Great Lawn at sunrise and hundreds of families sledding on the slopes of Cedar Hill all afternoon to the view of dozens of snow men, women and sculptures catching the evening sun.

Now, night is falling, and the crowds have cleared.

What remains is mostly broken sleds, empty pizza boxes and water bottles, maintenance and security crews.

And, beneath a grove of pines, seemingly besotted and without bearings, unable to see or speak clearly, stumbling when she tries to stand…one woman.

And, making his way towards her, weighed down with scavenged bits of food, fabrics and discarded sections of the Sunday Times, one seemingly homeless man….

She tries to say something to him…either with a severe speech impediment or in a language he can’t understand.

With questionable motive, he picks up her purse from the picnic table and begins rifling through it — camera, calendar, cell phone, cash, credit cards….

She musters enough strength to elbow him in the chest, grab her wallet back and flash her !MEDICAL ALERT CARD! like it was some badge of courage.

“I have myasthenia gravis,” it says in bold letters, red and black, ”a disease that can make me so weak that I may have difficulty standing or speaking….Sometimes these symptoms are mistaken for intoxication.  If I appear to need help, please contact my physician or hospital immediately.”

Now the man is conflicted.  He seems to be in utter shock, to hover somewhere between criminal intent and genuine caring.

He pauses, picks up an abandoned blanket, puts it around her shoulders, offers food and drink, thinks for a minute, seems confused about the calling the contacts on her card, sits at the picnic table and begins to cry.

She sits next to him and cries also.

Some time goes by.

Then, the man seems to take heart, has hatched a plan:

“How many fingers am I holding up?” he asks, making the sign that doubles for “peace” and “victory.”

She also holds up two, and he seems pleased.

He touches his index finger to his nose.

She does the same.

Next, he begins reciting poetry:

“Let us go then, you and I,

When the evening is spread out against the sky

Like a….”

She fills in the next word, barely audible, “patient…”

He continues:

“Like a patient etherised upon a table;
Let us go, through certain half-deserted streets,
The muttering retreats….”

Then, he spies a police officer out of the corner of his eye and flags him down.

The NYPD officer in his Interceptor is immediately on the scene…was, in fact, already on his way there…..

“What have we here?” he asks.  “A drunk and a derelict?  Or is there another way you want to explain it?”

The woman gestures to herself — “Endy Ubit” — hands the police officer her medical card, points to somewhere just beyond the perimeter of park, and says, incoherently, emphatically, drooling slightly,  “Om.”

The officer looks perplexed, and motions to the man:  “And you, Tarzan…under arrest?”

Endy shakes her head “No. Ero!”

“Zero?”  The officer is trying hard to understand.  Endy fishes in her purse for pen and paper, and holds up this sign:  “Hero.”

The man formerly suspected of stealing her purse seems surprised, but tries the word on for size:  “Hero…  Yes, I suppose so!”

“And that makes me…..?” asks the officer.

She holds up the sign again:

“Hero.”

They fall silent, stand in a circle.

Blare and flash of sirens approach.

“An ambulance?” asks the man.

“And a squad car,” says the officer.

“Om only?!” pleads Endy, who both men are almost starting to understand.

Medics assess Endy’s condition while the man undergoes a background check.

After some gallows humor and a little laughter, the cars leave, sirens off.

“Om only,” says the officer.

With Endy propped up in the middle, both men see her safely home.

At the doorstep:

“Om now,” offers Endy.

“You saw the “ero” in us,” says the gentleman.

“There’s got to be a name for that,” says the officer.

In fact, there is!

“UnderWoman,” says Endy, bowing her head respectfully, ducking inside.

It is a name she had bestowed upon herself only recently — in tribute to her relatively new “disability;” in honor of her lifelong ability to see and bring out the best in self and others; and in celebration of her talent for making fun, even if only of herself, in the face of it all….

It is the first time she has uttered the name aloud.

UnderWoman…Under Covers

Monday, December 28th, 2009

Myasthenia gravis aside, mispronouncing her own name is nothing new to UnderWoman.

The first words she can remember saying were “Wendy Do-It!”

And it stuck!

It stuck for her parents, Archer and Merrie.  For her brothers, Scoot and Grog.

Even the Do-It Family animals — Risk-It, the myotonic goat; Pig-It, the three-legged oneBrisk-It, the attention deficit disorder dog — benefitted from a kind of exuberant individualism that belied what others on the block (the DuMores and BoyCotts, for example…) would see as obstacles.

So it goes for brand builder Wendy Dubit in the aftermath of a sudden myasthenia flare….

After recounting the adventures of the night before, in consult with her doctors, while undergoing a round of in-home intravenous immunoglobulin (IVIG), she spends a few days under covers…and finds the time, the place, the climate delicious.

Into her boat-like bed she brings all-time favorite books and poems – St. Exupery’s “Little Prince,” all things Seuss, T.S. Eliot, Hafiz and more.  She brings pens and pencils of every color, sketch pads, writing pads.

She plays music, which has become the best medicine.  She occasionally atomizes the room with fragrances of lilac, linden, orange blossom, night-blooming jasmine.  She eats carrot-ginger soup with hearty bread, sips orange juice and seltzer zested with lemon, lime, kumquat and elixirs of elderflower and gentian.

She is refreshing her memory, enjoying the present, envisioning the future.

Her moss-green satin comforter would make a great cape….

UnderWoman, a.k.a. Wendy Do-It, is underway!

UnderWoman Surveys Central Park Snow People

Sunday, December 27th, 2009

UnderWoman regains her strength relatively quickly, and is EXCITED to show her entourage the Snow People of Central Park.

They will retrace her steps from the day before yesterday — back through the Arthur Ross Pinetum (where so much had taken place), to and through the Great Lawn, by the Delacorte Theater, past the Swedish Cottage, up into Shakespeare Garden.

En route, she will refresh her memory about how two strangers (one stranger than the other), had come to her aid.  And she will share with Risk-It, Brisk-It and Pig-It all the joys of NYC in Winter – all that can be observed, created and learned from SNOW.

Of course, the going is slow.

Brisk-It, her Attention Deficit Disorder dog, runs off in all directions.

Pig-It, who has three legs, hops and limps along through pure powder in sporadic bursts.

And Risk-It faints whenever excited or scared…which is almost always.

She faints yet again upon seeing a circle of Snow People at the outskirts of the Pinetum.

Just then, the gentleman from “mysasthenia gravis night out” comes running over — enthusiastic, but a little bit “off.”

“UnderWoman,” he exclaims, “You didn’t tell me you had a myotonic goat!”

“And you, Good Sir, didn’t even tell me your name.  But I was hoping we would meet again….”

And then, as she leans in towards the fainting goat and the odd man, she smells something strange…..

UnderWoman & Entourage Encounter Buck in Rut

Saturday, December 26th, 2009

As she always does upon encountering a new smell — be it good, bad, or as-yet undetermined — UnderWoman files it away in the vast stores of her memory; compares and contrasts it to all that is catalogued there.

If she must, she will wait until she has the words to express what it is.

Meantime, the strange man is not even giving her his name.

Is that he can’t?  Or that he won’t?

The smell emanating from him is vaguely urinous — further reinforcing her impressions that he could be homeless.  But he also has a regal, intelligent, mysterious air that leads UnderWoman to believe that he might also be famous and/or infamous.

He uses a line that has worked on her before:

“Let us go then, you and I….”

It’s a wonderful day.  And UnderWoman has very little to lose.

So she and entourage and odd fellow journey, slowly, south together.

They enter Central Park Zoo at 1 p.m., just as monkeys ring the brass bell of the Delacorte Clock and the festive dance of elephants, hippos and goats begins.

As they proceed through the zoo, there is something about the entourage that is causing not only people…but also animals…to turn their heads.

Risk-It faints.  Brisk-It pees on UnderWoman’s pants leg.  Pig-It is trying hard to telegraph something.

UnderWoman sees, and is mesmerized:  The man whose name we do not yet know is in an intense eye-lock with a whitetail deer buck on the other side of the glass.  The buck is going CRAZY. He is rearing up, pawing the sky, rubbing and banging his head against the wall.

For all intents and purposes, he appears to be in rut.

As Suspected….

Friday, December 25th, 2009

At first, the nameless, urinous man seems to be vamping for the buck in rut – swishing his hips, running his hands through his longish hair.

It seems to be an instinct-driven and intense mating dance.

Our stranger is at turns coy and beckoning.  The buck is….

The buck is….

The buck is about to break through the glass!  Or so it seems to a growing throng of bystanders and to appear from stress fractures that are rippling out in concentric circles.

The man faints straightaway.  The wall holds.

A park police officer in her Interceptor III is on the scene immediately:

“Ma’am, do you know this man?” she asks.

“He seems to be coming ‘round here a lot, and roiling up our animals when he does.”

“I think we should call 911,” says UnderWoman.

Just then, the man comes to.

He is on his knees, pleading:  “Please, please, UnderWoman.  Take me to…..

“TNYECONS, TNYECONS….”

Now it sounds like Brian is choking on Dutch verb conjugations, stuck on a stutter…or potentially suffering  a stroke.  Passersby might think he was trying to flirt with UnderWoman’s goat, or had a  chicken bone in his throat.

But UnderWoman knows just what he means!

Not only is she familiar with the The New York EpiCenter of NeuroScience…as a patient of the renowned neurologist Rich Granfeld…but she is also the founder and director of  The Senses Bureau (TSB), The Center for Applied Synesthesia (TCFAS) and The Rod and Cone Club (TRACC) — all housed at and partially funded by TNYECONS.

Perhaps because the proper pronunciation of its acronym causes one to sound like an injured animal and produce a certain spittle on the lips, TNYECONS is often simply referred to as “Epi.”

Likewise, TCFAS (pronounced Sephardic style) has a signature “ring” that causes peoples’ eyes to roll upper left and that deters most of them from saying the acronym aloud while eating.

UnderWoman is a strong proponent of “not chewing with your mouth open” and “not talking with your mouth full.”

Well, not really….

In fact, UnderWoman was an early and enthusiastic practioner of both.  But when her newly diagnosed myasthenia flares, UnderWoman’s mouth may become so weak that she cannot and eat and speak at the same time and may mispronounce her own name.

As her ! MEDICAL ALERT CARD ! so proudly proclaims, sometimes these symptoms are mistaken for intoxication.  Still, she is committed to living LIFE.  Her condition bears her no shame!

But back to TNYECONS!

It is THE place for all the “movers and shakers” in neuroscience.  Whether you are studying Parkinson’s, ALS and the like, or just have it; whether you are conducting primary research on neuroplasticity, or just want to attend a lecture by someone who is, TNYECONS is the place for you!

UnderWoman is riffing on all these awesome aspects of her life…and on the ground-breaking programs that affect so many people’s lives…when Brian’s incessant honking — remarkably like the calls  of wild geese — bring her back to the present.

“TNYECONS, TNYECONS, TNYECONS” he cries.

“”Please take me to TNYECONS, UnderWoman!   My memory is  coming back. And I need…I need a safe place to crash.”

A lightbulb goes off in UnderWoman’s upper left front orbital.

Aha, she thinks:  He  IS an amnesic neurologist after all — something she had suspected the first time they met.

“Okay, I’ll call an ambulance.  I just wonder what we’ll do with….”

He glances at the animals, takes her hand:  “Let us go on foot, with entourage.  It will give us time to regroup, to recount.”

UnderWoman thinks to call 911 anyway, just to cover all the bases.  But instead , she calls her neurologist, the esteemed Dr. Rich Granfeld.

As always, he will be there, will know what to do.

“Ms. Do-It,” (he addresses her formally),  “It occurred to me when last we spoke.  But now I’m fairly certain:  Ms. Do-It, I believe you have found Dr. Brian Liebman.  Can you bring him here?”

“We are on our way,” says UnderWoman, then hesitates:  “But it could take time, as we are on foot and with entourage.  Dr. Granfeld, do you allow pigs in your office?”

“It is our preference and intent not to do so, Ms. Do-It.  But that has never stopped them before….”

The Return of Brian

Friday, December 25th, 2009

UnderWoman is not wowed by celebrities or cowed by military juntas.

But she is AWED by her rock-star neurologist, Dr. Rich Granfeld, who in addition to treating her myasthenia gravis, is a founding father of The New York Epicenter of NeuroScience…and is the reason that so many renowned researchers and physicians have flocked to  the institution.

Within moments of their arrival, even the “It” animals of the Do-It Family entourage have places of honor in Dr. Granfeld’s inner sanctum, with its vast library, curiosity cabinets, medical treasures and oddities, and adjoining exam rooms.

“Ms. Do-It,” he says deferentially, while Brian is having his vitals checked,  “You have indeed found Dr. Brian Liebman.  He had gone on a solo game-hunting expedition to North Salem a few months back…and never came back.

“We tried every means of finding him in our power.  But lacking any credible clues, he was presumed….”

“Presumed missing?” asks Brian, brightly, re-entering the room.

The two men embrace, take their places in plush red leather chairs.

The full story, albeit missing some key links, begins to unfold:

Dr. Liebman was a successful but somewhat reclusive neuroanatomist, working first with fruit flies in the labs of Dr. Brad Axle, Nobel laureate for his breakthroughs in the fields of olfaction; and then in the labs of Nobel laureate Dr. Olin Candle, with whom he mastered molecular models of memory and later altered genes so as to induce and treat schizophrenia in mice.

He had always been considered both brilliant and a little bit off:

He could intuit and solve mathematical equations and scientific mysteries like nobody’s business.  But then he would do something totally dense and obtuse, even endangering….

So it went with his determination to go on a solo hunting trip “upstate,” when he had hardly ever been away from big cities or outside of academic institutions.

His hypo-manic studies of the olfactory systems of whitetail deer, coupled with excessive paraphernalia purchases from Gander Mountain, could be classified as….

BINGO!  A light goes on for UnderWoman!

She should have known better!  Seen sooner!

But at least it’s beginning to dawn on her now….

With Undertones Of….

Thursday, December 24th, 2009

UnderWoman flashes back to her own first outing to Gander Mountain.

She had never been in a hunting and game store before.

She was wanting to pick up pointers about the art and science of the hunt…as well as some small gifts for her upcoming trip to the Do-It family farm, where Scoot and Grog and their kids would school her in gun safety, treat her to target practice, outfit her for the occasion, and take her on a shoot….

What had most drawn Wendy — in a Middletown store the size of a Wal-Mart — was the extensive selection of doe and buck urine…as many different varieties as she could find of wine and beer in a rural convenience mart.

The urines were tumbling all over each other in explanations and exclamations:

Wildlife Research Center’s® 2009 Special Golden Estrus®:  Super Fresh natural whitetail deer doe urine with estrus secretions; harvested from one single doe; originally available exclusively to hunting industry insiders; every bottle labeled with its own serial number and “use by” date; put up in amber glass bottles to protect freshness; the smell your trophy buck has been waiting for. Note: Special Golden Estrus® is still highly effective when the year it was labeled for has passed, but the effectiveness drops to that of a normal top quality doe in estrus type scent.

Golden Estrus® Gel: Thick like honey; long lasting; drives bucks wild!

Code Red® Whitetail Doe Urine: Has a natural calming effect on bucks and does by signaling that other deer are in the area; trophy bucks are less likely to spook; works great as a curiosity attractant for bringing early and late season does into easy bow range.

Code Red® Whitetail Buck Urine: Early season bucks often travel in bachelor groups and are quick to check out the scent of a new intruding buck.  Peak [sic] their curiosity with the scent of a new buck by pouring it into mock scrapes.  Create the presence of an intruding buck during pre-rut by pouring Buck Urine in active scrapes.  Dominant bucks ready to defend the territory will quickly seek out the competition….

There is equal shelf space dedicated to Wildlife Research Center’s® Scent Killer® brand: Scent Killer® spray, soap, body wash, shampoo, deodorant, laundry detergent, dryer sheets, field wash and more.

UnderWoman is sure she is beginning to get the picture, and beckons a sales agent.

“So the idea is to mask human odor, and to apply deer odor, yes?” she asks.

“Oh My God!  God no!” says the agent, putting his hand on his forehead in horror, shaking them out:  “Never, ever apply doe or buck urine to yourself!  Very strange and bad things have happened to people who do.

“Only apply doe, buck, elk, fox, coyote and other urines to Quik-Wiks®, Magnum Scrape-Drippers®, Trophy Leaf® and other off-body wicks and devices.  Would you like help finding these?  Are these urines for you, or someone else? Have you ever hunted before?”

UnderWoman does not hear the last question.

Instead, she is laughing hysterically, mortified, really, realizing the extent of her folly, imagining the possibilities, flashing back to a lifetime’s worth of understandings and misunderstandings, and wondering why people, companies, products, countries and religions don’t go further in their use of warning labels and disclaimers….

“I mean, there are so many of us” she burbles to the Gander guy, “Walking around with illusions, delusions, conceptions, misconceptions..  Some of them are funny!  Some could be harmful….

“I’ll show you mine if….”

At this point, her indulgent ex, who brought her to this store in the first place, takes pity on Gander Mountain man:

“I can’t say this doesn’t happen all the time,” he offers.  “It’s just that I don’t see her enough to know. WooHoo!  Here we go….”

UW:  “When I was a kid, in synagogue (but rarely), they kept mentioning the ’still, small voice.’  And I kept asking, rather loudly (which was the only way I knew how to ask back then), why the voice was ’still small.’  I mean, it had been small for several years.  Didn’t it ever grow?

“And I ask you now, not as an intrusion into your belief system (which I hardly ever do except when I can’t help not), but because I really want to know: Whose voice was it, anyway?”

UnderWoman Flashes Back

Wednesday, December 23rd, 2009

UnderWoman pauses for a moment, flashes further back…

The year is 1969.  Man has supposedly landed on the moon.  The Do-Its are celebrating at Peter Pan restaurant.  Grog has stirred his Shirley Temple with a swizzle stick, and now is chewing on it.

“Oh my God!  Oh my God!”  cries Merrie, covering her eyes and wringing her hands.  “My son is eating crushed glass!  Someone help us…..FAST!”

Grog’s face freezes — mouth open, eyes rolled upward and back, in shock and fear – an expression the Do-It’s will mimic again and again on just such occasions.

Time stands still.  Families turn heads.  Sound goes silent.

And then, a brave waiter approaches.

“Ma’am,” he says, “The swizzle stick is made of rock candy.  Your son is eating rock candy.”

All laugh….

UnderWoman’s First Hunt

Tuesday, December 22nd, 2009

Despite being satisfied with the scent killers and scent enhancers she had bought to the table, UnderWoman’s first hunting trip had not gone as planned:

First, Scoot had placed her in a padded suit that made her look like Elmer Fudd, and had photographed her from the most unflattering angles.

Then, assorted guns or rifles…or whatever you called them…had powerful kickbacks for which she was unprepared.

And all chastised her on the morning of the hunt, when they had risen at 4:00 a.m., and dressed all in camo, albeit with bright splashes of orange…as if to signify paradoxically, that they were both of nature and in no way part of nature.

“Even her feet can’t be quiet,” they chided her. “Hear how she tromps through fallen leaves and breaks branches underfoot! No bucks will be stopping by this day!”

On the car ride home, UnderWoman was dazed and contused.

Merrie Do-It tried to read soothingly and instructively to her.

Merrie: “Here’s a story about a UVA medical school student who was spelunking in a cave in Oregon and fell to his death. You have to be so careful these days. Do you remember when Archer was caught in a cave?”

“Mom, he was stuck in a rock with a hole in it in an amusement park.”

Merrie: “You always make light of me and your Dad! But the rocks were real. Franconia Notch, remember?”

UnderWoman: “There were guides and guards everywhere. And a sign that warned adults and anyone at all claustrophobic not to go into the Lemon Squeezer.  And Dad was stuck for what, like 15 minutes?”

“Still, it was scary!  One can’t be careful enough….”

UnderWoman remembers that trip for another reason: On what was planned as no more than a pit stop en route to New Hampshire, Wendy Do-It became enamored with Manhattan — was convinced that it was where she was from and where she would always be.

Grog, on the other hand, would be taken with nature, with New Hampshire’s White Mountains, and would decide to base his life on the great outdoors.

None of them were too happy about the drive, however.

While Merrie and Archer argued bitterly about the best way to and from Mount Washington from their Mittersill Alpine Resort, Wendy had an asthma attack in the back seat. Grog threw up in a bucket. And Scoot stuck his hand in it.

Archer, always the optimist, speculated that Scoot would become the doctor in the family.

He was right!

But back to Brian…..

Brian = Brain, Scrambled

Tuesday, December 22nd, 2009

Brian stands for “brain” scrambled…which his certainly was.

While they are waiting for lab results, Dr. Granfeld updates Brian on progress at The New York EpiCenter of NeuroScience – advances in mitochondrial DNA, markers for Parkinson’s, Alzheimer’s, ALS and the like.

When she can get a word in, UnderWoman jumps in with her hypothesis:

“Brian, had you purchased doe or buck urine for your hunt?”

“Of course!”

“And what did you do with it?”

“Well, first I masked my own scent, and then I….”

He trails off there.

He bites his lip and narrows his eyes, which focus upper left.

He is searching for something.  Remembering something.

UnderWoman now recalls her own experience with the scents, and where and when she had first smelled something urinous on Brian.

“Brian.  Brian….” UnderWoman calls him from a kind of reverie.

“Brian.  Did you apply Doe in Estrus scent behind your ears?”